so while my facebook will continue to paint a pretty picture, i'm not going to let this become just another avenue to smile on the out when i'm frowning on the in. i realize some of you prefer that painting, and if you don't like the art, you don't want to look at it, comment on it, and would rather ignore it. it may seem uncomfortable or like i should keep it to myself, but that's just not how it is going to be. that's not what this blog is about.
all in all, i'm not having a great day.
it's one of those days where i feel inadequate. i feel immature. i feel weak. i feel young. i feel foolish.
i don't need someone to tell me this isn't true. i know its not. but today, that's how i feel.
i know i should get over it. just suck it up and be strong. i know i need to be more humble and have greater faith. i know the only reason i am where i am is because of the Lord. and He has given me everything and more.
so it will all be ok. it always is.
secondly, running isn't getting any funner (yeah, not a word. i'm over it. you should be too). and i don't like the book on tape i've been listening to (sorry brent), but that could be due to the fact that i associate it with running. maybe i should give music a try for awhile.
lastly, contrary to my initial judgement, the busted pumpkin on the side of the road was not pumpkin but was in fact what appeared to be former cheese fries, that apparently did not enjoy its new residence in the consumer's stomach (this is another reason why i should go on runs).
ok, enough negativity.
i'm happy as a clam, can't wait to go to s.d. with the fam, and uber stoked for football and my final year at byu to start.
linds and i went on a crazy house hunt; however, reality set in and we decided to abandon this dream of ours. but since i was getting all crazy excited about change of scene, decorating, and all that jazz, there are now some things that i feel are necessary to update our fabulous apartment (our search helped us realize how much we really do love our place).
in my room
• a bookshelf
• a cute, comfy chair
in the kitchen
don't you just hate getting letdown texts? especially when you are really bored at work? and your phone goes off and you get all excited but really its just a reminder for a meeting, or a mass text, or from someone that wouldn't be one of your top picks to hear from (i assure you, none of you fall into this category... you're all in my top picks).
anyway, one early morning and 5 letdown texts later, i decided this required a blog post. because blog posting is one of my pick-me-up cures for letdown ails.
other pick-me-up-cures include:
- chocolate (obviously)
- loudly singing along to songs in my car with the windows down (especially when i'm doing 80 coming back from salt lake at 11 at night and its 78 degrees outside and the wind is whipping my hair around and i can smell the summer air)
- reading your blogs (and for those of you who don't have one, your comments)
- a really good book (the current read is the great divorce by c.s. lewis)
- cute things (yeah, this is vague. so what. deal with it.)
- finding new songs that i become obsessed with (see below)
- and you! (so text me dagnabit)